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okayyy. so school started- i have SUPER easy classes and i have good people in all of them. Linas is in like every other class of mine =) but this year will be good.
NO DRAMA.
i lovee cheer<3 we won our first game on friday! it was soo much fun. and the team is just so amazing, and honestly- our new uniforms aren't that bad. i like them now!
HHT tryouts are next weeeeek!! everyone should try out! :)
16 months. wow i love him.
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[23 Aug 2006|08:32am] |
goodbye summer '06.
we're seniors now. wow, that's crazy. it'll be weird.
but i'm excited.
007.
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[09 Aug 2006|11:45pm] |
1-Precalc (Pinnell)
2-Keyboarding 2 (Brachel)
3-Issues (Avant)
4B-Sociology (Schultz)
5C-Athletic Conditioning (Lantzy)
6-Madrigal Choir (Tuomi)
7-Human Resources (Maisner)
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[24 Jul 2006|12:04am] |
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hellooooo. well summer is still going, and it hasn't really gotten any better.. maybe just worse?
well my mom and grandma left for Israel. we got the best doctor in Israel that we could to take care of my grandma during the flight and everything went perfect. my grandma moved her right leg a bit which was amazing news. she got to israel and was in the best place for rehab. but.. a few days ago she had another heart attack and now she's back in the hospital. my dad said that he's not very optimistic anymore and my dad is always like tyring to make things seem better than they really are, so i'm starting to get really worried. it's just i can't lose her.. she's all i have now. she's the greatest person a live, honestly. she's the most caring woman, loving person ever. i can talk to her about everything and she gives the best advice. she's my savtah, my yehudit. i'm just so worried, and i wish i could be with her in israel right now by her side at the hospital never leaving her side. i'm just so worried and all i can do lately is think about her. i love her so much and i miss her so much. they told me that she will never be able to get back to normal ever again, and i can't believe that. she was so healthy, always up for a walk, always wanting to go for ice cream, go shopping, or do whatever she can do to make someone happy. i just wish i could be with her right now. i just hope and pray that she will be better. i miss her so much.
and then my grandpa, i miss him. i just don't believe that he's really gone.. i know that i'll be going to israel soon and i'll visit him and he'll show me what's he is building or fixing becuase that's what he always does. makes things. my special box , he made it with me. i remember sitting there in maryland at the kitched table with him and i told him exactly what i wanted and we put it together and he glued it for me. i remember every morning i woke up and i had my cereal ready on the kitched table with a little cool whip on top. he loved cool whip so much, and that's probably why i love it so much too. i just wish i could go back to israel from last summer and spend more time with him. it's just not fair.. i miss him so much. i just want to see him again. just one more time. but that's imnpossible.
i'm worried about my cousin, Roee. i know he'll be okay, but he's just fighting right now in Haifa. i just hope he's safe and h e'll be okay, which i'm sure he will. Israel will be okay too. Israel has the strongest army and i know things will be good in the end. it is a tough time right now but they have gone through SO much and they will be okay. hey if israel wasn't so strong, there would be no israel at the moment. oh man.. i wish i was there right now. i would pay a million dollars to go right now. that's the one place i want to be at the moment. in israel, my country, my home, with my family, and with my grandma by her side.
there is just so much going on right now that i'm taking it out on people and just screwing EVERYTHING up. i guess this just wasn't my summer. it doesn't even feel like summer. usually it kicks in on my birthday, but it sure as hell does not feel like i even had one. the only people who really cared and wanted me to have a good time was my sister and Rita. i don't know. this summer has just been messed up. and i just want to leave.
so much going through my mind right now. i'm actually happy that my parents haven't signed my papers to excuse me for the army in israel. so for now, i'm going.
theres so much i want to do.. i want to be in israel right now, be with my grandma, fight right by my cousin's side, work things out with Linas, not worry about stupid cheerleading.. just all this stuff. and i just miss my mommy and i want her to come back too..
i just don't know anymore.. everything is so tough and all i can do is cry, but i won't show it. i'll cry in my room late at night. i don't want anyone seeing me like that, i'm honestly at my weakest point right now with everything. and it seems like no one is there to understand or even help me through it.. i don't know.
if anyone read this, i'm sorry for all the bitching, i just had to write. and this is the only place i write. it's just my life at this point. so i'm sorry. i just hope things get better.
i love you Yehudit, stay strong.
RIP Gerhard Wilner, you are really missed.
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[25 Jun 2006|10:58pm] |
so summer actually isn't that great .
cousins came in town last week started out fun with them. then the next day my grandma had a massive stroke and ended up in the hospital and still is there . . i'm really worried about her and i hope everything turns out okay. her left brain is damaged and her whole right side is paralyzed and she can't speak. and on my birthday she had a mild heart attack.. but she's improving very slowly but hopefully things will just keep getting better.
on top of all that, my grandpa passed away in israel yesterday morning. my dad left for israel today. and everything is just so hard. but thank god there is family and friends. honestly they have all been there and some friends that i haven't talked to for a while are helping me a lot and it means a lot to me. i just hope everything turns out okay..
RIP Gerhard Wilner. i love you and miss you .
and Yehudit- stay strong, i know you can. you're such a strong woman and i believe that you can completely recover from this. i love you so much. get better, please?
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[20 Jun 2006|09:13am] |
.. please pray for my grandma ..
Ani Ohevet Otach, Yehudit♥
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| summer !! |
[15 Jun 2006|12:14am] |
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holy shittt- junior year is officially over. i'm technically a senior. what the hell? i was just a freshman.
junior year was good, although there were a lot of downs. it started off amazing than just got worse then good then bad then good.. yah you get the point. but as much as there were all the downs, i still had fun and i can't wait for another great year. junior year i lost friends that i thought were my best friends, when in reality they weren't and life was just full of drama with them. don't get me wrong- they are good people but we just don't get along. but some i still am close with.
this year i did meet some amazing people, some i talk to every now and then, and some i talk to all the time. i met Rita this year, well i actually met her last year but this year we got really close. she has changed me into a stronger and better person and has helped me through EVERYTHING this year and without her, seriously i'd be a huge pile of shit. she has truly become my best friend and i have never clicked with someone so fast like i did with her. i swear we just clicked right away and we get along so well and we always have fun. and honestly, i dont' know about her but i have never gotten sick of her. and that's hard for me b/c i get sick of people easily. i just love her so much and i can't wait till she's out of school and i spend so much time with her and work with her and just have our girls night!
of course me and Linas are still close. yah we had a lot of trouble throughout this year, but we still love each other no matter what, we're still best friends, and even if we aren't going out- we will always be in love. i love that boy no matter what. and Linas- i'm sorry for everything that went on this year. you are truly my one and only, and i love you so much.
this past year i had accomplished goals that i had set. i became captain of Hip hop team, got on varsity cheerleading again, had really good grades, became close with a lot of people, and didn't have that much drama really. Junior year was tough, but we got through it.
it's weird.. at this time in one year i will be graduated from high school and i will know where i will be going to college.. it's so weird.
well it's summer and i'm excited. it'll be a great summer, hopefully stress free. but we'll see :) i'll make the best of it, that's for sure. oh and my birthday is in one week!! June 21-
i love you so much♥
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uhm my dream came true-- HIP HOP CAPTAIN FOR 2006-2007 !! i don't think anyone understands how much i've wanted this. ever since freshman year i have wanted it and next year it will be Michelle, Janelle, and me! eeeeeeek.
sorry i'm just SUPER excited.
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[31 May 2006|06:05pm] |
i missed cheerleading. going to practice today was lovely and it felt like summer is comingg!! :) i'm so excited to be with the whole team and for both camps! wow my last year of cheerleading, so sad but i'm so excited.
2 weeks left and it's summer! i can NOT wait. i am so excited to just relax and not worry about school. and just being outside in the sun :) yayyyy!
okay okay. i love you!! :)
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| goodbye seniors .. |
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did the seniors really leave this morning? is it true that we will be going to school tomorrow, walking through the halls, not seeing those familiar faces, and being the oldest ones in the school? i don't believe it. some of my really good friends were seniors and who i talked to all the time and now i won't be seeing them everyday like i have been ever since i walked into those doors my freshman year. some i met when i went to cheerleading the summer before freshman year and some i even met at tryouts. then i met a lot throughout these past years and now they left. it's going to be so weird. i'll miss the class of '06.
the weird part of everything is that we're seniors. i'm not ready to be a senior yet. i'm still a little freshman that is very shy and doesn't know anything. i'm still that little girl who had tons and tons of friends, with lots of drama, and not heart broken. how am i supposed to be a senior? i'm not ready to grow up at all. in one year that will be us, me, having that talk during choir, walking through the halls for one last time at 9, painting the rock for the last time as a class, going to prom, and walking across that stage. so weird to think about that. we're the oldest now.
everything goes by so fast.
and on top of everything- my sister turned 21. what the hell? we were just little living in maryland, sharing a room, making up songs, pretending like my brother's closet is a time machine. now she's 21, she's not even a teenager anymore. my best friend is all grown up now.
things are just crazy. and this week is incredibley sad.
i love you♥
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| a year?? |
[30 Apr 2006|11:50pm] |
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can you believe it?? friday was our one year. wow- that's amazing.. seriously. this year was truly amazing, even though we did had some MAJOR downs but all of our ups made up for it completely. everything that we had gone through was really hard but we got through it all. things may still be hard now and then, we may fight still but we can do it. we love each other so much it's ridiculous. wow.. i just can't believe it, one year being together with him. he's perfect. friday he came to hip hop again and brought me roses <3 <3 and tonight we went out for dinner for our one year. this weekend i just had butterflies with him the whole time, you know- those kind of butterflies when you kiss the one you like for the first time? or when they ask you out? well i had them all weekend because everything was perfect. when we went to the movies last night i even had butterflies, everything just felt so right, so perfect. i love him :)
-04-28-05-
i love you Linas Kasputis♥
other than that everything is going pretty good actually, physics project with Jenna is very stressful but the hard part is basically over with and we're getting through it. school is pretty good, still have a good GPA, physics is super easy, everything is lovely. cedar point is coming up- oh so excited! and i'm definitely going to get over my fear of heights. i'm dead serious about it this time. cheerleading is going to be amazing! we're getting new uniforms and we're doing so much this year, i'm so excited! track is wonderful too. it's going to be sad though next year without the seniors. coughNATALIE, NAJIBA, MELANIE, LISAcough. and it sucks that some people quit.. so yah things are good and i'm happy!
oh and i love my friends oh so much :)
goodnighttt!
oh and of course--
I love you Linas <33
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[08 Apr 2006|11:33pm] |
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well i rarely update this but that's cause i'm lazy and don't have time.. but i feel like it now :)
so everything is wonderful. school is actually going really well. i got good grades once again on my report card. i have over an 100% in math which is lovely, and i have an A in physics- thank godddd. everything is else is good too. so school is actually good and i'm enjoying it.
track is a bitch, not going to lie. but of course i love it.. it sucks that it's not like it was last year. this year the coaches have permanent sticks up their asses and they are SUPER gay. and now they are telling us what shoes we can wear?? yah OKAY. you're not my mom- you don't buy my shoes. i'll wear whatever shoes i want- fuck them seriously. other than coaches it's not that bad. i'm just sick of certain people that think they are the best and everything is revolved around them but whateverrrrr. me and najiba are tight as hell this year and i absolutely love her :)
we had tryouts for cheerleading this past week. i'm not going to lie i did not feel good about tryouts this year. usually i'm not that nervous but this year i was FREAKING out. i just had this feeling all week long that i wasn't going to make it and bla bla bla. but i made varsity again! i'm so excited. i don't know a few girls but i'm sure i'll get to know them and just the people on the team are awesome and i can't wait for everything to start up!
we also had ACTs this past week which was hell but thank god it's over with.
so everything is absolutely wonderful with Linas :) this month will be one year for us which is pretty exciting. i don't know what we'll do but it will be special. we go through a lot but it's all worth it. whenever we're together things are just so fun and so amazing. it's so hard to picture life without him. mm. i love him. i can't even write things in here because i can't put it into words.. all i can say is that i love him sooo much.
so life is wonderful and i'm just so happy :)
sorry for the long entry.. maybe i'll update more? we'll see.
night♥
... once again- I love Linas <3 ..
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yah this week SUCKSSSSSSSS. track meet today was the worst thing ever. it was FREEZING, snowing, raining, everything. and i had to run the 400 and 4x4. bitch runs that's all i have to say.. but i love them, especially with my slacker buddies :) i'm sore like a bitch and i have tryouts tomorrow- i don't know how i'm going to do it..
okay more bitching tomorrow probably- night♥
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this week must DIE.
>> cheer tryouts, 2 track meets, ACTs, 2 tests, project, and that's not even all of it.
okay. yah for sure can't deal with this. and if you come to me sometime this week and i'm a bitch i apologize ahead of time but this week is NOT going to work for me at allll. k yah no more bitching- no one wants to hear it.
wish me luck...
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everything is wonderful. life is beautiful. :) i have a feeling this weekend will just be amazing.
i love my family, my friends, and i love Linas.
♥♥♥
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| fort minor concert tomorrowwww!! |
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well life is going pretty good :) new semester, new classes, new people. i like most of my classes, not all, and i have good people in them. definitely looking at a 4.0 GPA this semester. so that's good!
hip hop has been good besides that there was some drama and we NEVER have drama. it'll blow over. we performed at the pistons game which was sweet! Linas came with and we had a lot of fun, and ate A LOT. Thursday we have NF Live and we're performing our new dance. i'm soo excited! and next week is Pep Rally! these two weeks will be exciting.
track is starting up soon. i don't know how i feel about that. conditioning starts next week and actual practices start beginning of march. hopefully it'll be like track last year, so funn.
tomorrow i'm going to the FORT MINOR concert with Linas! i'm soo excited. it'll be so fun. :) i love that boy. for real. he's the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. and i love it how we planned out our future! haha good times.
something that's been brough up a lot lately that is pretty scary is college. we have a year and half left and then we're off to college. it's a scary thought. i'm going to be a way from home, away from my mom, dad, brother, and sister. i don't know where i want to go, yet what i want to do.. obviously i have some things in mind but i just don't know.. it's really weird and i hate thinking about it. and now we're doing our schedules for our senior year. it's so weird. i duno.. i just feel really weird about it..
i just have a lot on my mind lately. nothing in specific just everything in general. just thinking about my future and all that stuff. just the other day i was looking at pictures from when i was younger and still in diapers, now i'm grown up, i'm a teenager, i drive a car, i am in love, since when did i grow up so fast?! who knows soon enough i'll be old and wrinkly with white hair.. errr weirddd. just everything in general has been weird. i've been thinking about literally everything. but it's good to know that i have that one person to count on to listen to me bitch, whine, cry, everything.. i love him♥
mmkay.. i'm going to bed soon. i have to get my rest because i'm going to the FORT MINOR CONCERT tomorrow!! :) yayy i'm so exciteddd. i haven't been to a concert since freshman year yellowcard/something corporate! and to make it even better i'm going with LINAS!
byeee.
i love you.
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finals this week- i only have two that i actually had to study for.. well actually one. i had math on tuesday which was SUPER easy i got a 97%! physics final today, a lot better than what i expected. truthfully i don't think i did that bad. so yayy. no more finals! well if you can't choir which i don't.
2nd semester schedule::
Algebra 2- Umlauf
Yoga and Pilates- Gabrkat
Computer Apps- Conway
Physics- Moundros
America Lit Themes- Salowich
Madrigal Choir- Tuomi
Psychology- Serlin
lunches 4A, 5B-- tell me if you have any classes or lunches with mee :o)
everything has just been really good- NF Live auditions were today, a lot of people did reallly good. i'm not worried about HHT not making it.. cause we will- no doubt about it. umm. my hot tub is working againnn :o) mm i love itt.
otayy- i'm out.. byee!
i love you!!♥
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| hello 2006. |
[02 Jan 2006|12:51am] |
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( 2006. )
welll. this past week was RC- which was AMAZING. i love Koach and i love Michigan Region. RC it what honestly keeps me going in BBYO. i love it. i met so many new people, and became closer with friends that i had before, and even became friends with people who i was friends with before and lost touch. so that made me happy :o) our song, cheer, and talent show were amazing and i truly believe that we should've placed and the fact that we didn't is SO gay. judges sucked this year- but it's okay. we all had SO much fun. i can't wait till next year's RC- for sure counting down the days. well that was my week- full of RC. CONGRATS ACHAYOT AND JOLSON FOR WINNING RC. and seriously- people need to STOP people sore losers. who cares if they won? we all had soo much fun, so get over it.
so last night was new years eve! after work, i came home and picked up linas than back to my house for a bit, than we went to max and ermas for dinner and met up with sarah and steve. we ate and saw tons of people there. then we went to see the ringer and we saw some more people. movie was hilarious. than we went to sarah's and just chilled for a bit and than linas and i came back to my house for the ball drop and everything.. so we just chilled. than my parents came home and we took him home. it was so amazing to be with him on new years. really did :o) everything was perfect and i loved it.
Linas, you took the words out of my mouth last night. if we were to re-do 2005 over again, i wouldn't change anything. i love you so much.
goodnight.
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I GOT A NEW CARRR!!! 2006 Explorer XLT- picture will be posted soon. it is BEAUTIFUL. really is. nice improvement from my last car haha
so it's not OFFICIALLY winter yet-- but it looks like it. the snow has been crazy and we should've had a snow day on thursday but honestly i'm glad we didn't because during 6th hour- choir we all had such a rent moment. we got on stage because it was ready for our concert that night but ended up being cancelled and the lights were down, microphones still working, a random ladder on stage, and all this stuff and looked like it would be a scene from rent-- so of course a bunch of people from my class and started singing rent and it looked like it was in the movie and sounded sweeett. it was just fun! :o) butt after school was the greatest.. we all went to our cars to clean the snow off and basically the whole parking lot had a huge snow ball fight and it was soo much fun! and it kept going until you actually got out of the school- people were driving and still throwing snowballs it was SO much fun!! than came home, shoveled my driveway by myself and now i hurt my back and my ankle from it, but i'll live AND i got a babysitting job!! sweeet-- 2 jobs! MORE MONEY!! than visited linas while he was shoveling more people's driveways and chilled with him for a bit..
today was good too! school was fine nothing special. easiest math test EVER! people said it was soo hard, but i don't think so, foods was fun! danielle gave vytas the BIGGEST wedgie everr! it was HILARIOUS. int affairs- definitely fell asleep. and athletic cond- same as usual but we played kickball today and it was fun. i love that class.
after school i had hip hop and it feels like i haven't had that in foreverr. we went over the old dance cause we're doing it at the pistons game JANUARY 22! everyone should go! :o) but i wish we would do the new dance.. but we're not- :o( me and linas picked one of the songs! it's sweet as hell. and we learned more of the new dance and it is one sweet ass dance. i'm definitely obsessed with this one- i swear hip hop team just gets better and better.
came home, fell asleep, dinner, figured out plans- picked up linas in my NEW SWEET CAR and we went BOWLINGGGG! i'm getting soo much better lol and lets just say we both had some embarressing moments that were hilarious! than we just chilled and got some food! i love hanging out with him! we always have a great time- then dropped him off and now i'm home just chillinn. tomorrow i'm working 1-5 COME VISIT!
alrightt- i'm done. going to bed soon i'm tired and reallly sore.
i loooveee youuuu!!
♥
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yahh i'm soo lazy to update now and i just don't have the time for it now and i don't have much to update about..
well i'm not doing cheer anymore- hip hop is amazing as always and is the love of my life! :o) hmm.. talked to Whitney last night for hours! amazingg. i love that girl and we are definitely having plans and SOON. me and adam are having our tricky marathon thursday and see who is best-- and I WILL WIN! adam you're going DOWNNN. :o) haha and i definitely still have linas' gamecube from like weeks ago-- he gave it to me before thanksgiving and everytime he comes over he says that he will take it, but nope IT'S STILL HERE and i'm still playing non-stop. i'm thinking about jacking it for a while. lol it's my obsession and if i'm pissed i just have to play tricky and i'll be fine.
my dad is in israel again. he's coming home on friday! i can't wait- i miss him! he fixed my jewish star neckalace thank god. and he said that he bought lots of stuff so that's exciting too!
pistons game is coming up next month- that means HIP HOP TEAM IS PERFORMING! :o) yayy. and Allie's bat-mitzvah! i'm excited for that i think it'll be soo much fun.
alright time to go to bed- i'm tired and i feel very sick.. :o\ nightt..
OH and i might be going to israel again this summerrrr!!! :o) yayyyyy!!!!
i love you♥
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